Last night my partner had a full tummy of worms and even though he'd eaten dinner, closely followed by strawberries and light aerosol cream, he decided at 8pm that he wanted pikelets, jam and more cream!
And me being me initially thought "I can handle that" so up I jumped and made him pikelets.
This is the area I'm working on really hard - the area where I MUST not tell myself off and at the very least pat myself on the back for the smaller miracles.
I lost my willpower to not have any and I had two - with cream! But I only had two which is what I'm patting myself on the back for. I did however walk away with my naughty voice screaming at myself "how could you", "if you put on weight this week you'll know why" and "you failed...again".
Trying to focus on the positive side of only having two is I guess my saving grace. I did win...I did stop whereas in the past I would have had an equal portion size....unbelievable.
But I'm going to be honest....I would be devastated to put on weight. That will be my true test and not derailing. God, give me strength.
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