Weigh In: Wk 10: Loss 1 Kilo

Well, all my issues aside, I had a great week weight loss wise! One whole kilo! Fantastic really.

I had said to myself that I'd like to give myself a kick in the butt and get some larger losses being recorded and so pushed myself up to 40 minutes of exercise this past week. I also tried and succeeded to walk five days a week, which I think I actually achieved, even though I'm sure I only did 30 minutes of exercise on a couple of those days.

Still, what a great result. Would love to do that again this coming week so will give it a go.

I took my measurements this morning. Wow. Off my chest I've lost 7.5 cm's, off my waist I've lost 5 cm's, off my hips I've lost 4 cm's, and even off my neck I've lost 2 cm's. I can slip my gold bangle off my hand now without any effort and I never thought I'd say this but boy I'm getting annoyed at having my pants feeling like they are going to fall down all the time - I may have to buy a belt!

I am enjoying the christmas festivities too. I made mini muffin christmas cakes last week. 1 points value per serve and I enjoy one a day. My mum can't believe my diet is as varied as it is, with the type of food I'm putting away and still losing weight.

As I have said before, this time it's all the way. All the way to my goal weight. Time to look after my body and give it every opportunity to live a long and healthy life.

Wk 10: Feelings

Wow, what a scary week this week. I can't believe how easy it would be to de-rail. I can feel all my old habits just sitting under the surface just waiting for the opportunity to shine through again. This week I want to eat. I want to pick. I want to snack.

Strangely I can still control my portion sizes. I can still tell when I'm full and stop but within 30 minutes I'm feeling the need to shovel more food into my mouth. I'm trying desperately to analyse the feelings behind the 'wanting to eat' because I figure if I can work those out I can work on stopping them but all I get is this feeling of extreme nervousness and anxiety coursing through my body and my head is saying...."eat it now because it may not be there in 10 minutes"

I will pat myself on the back though for the small things I've achieved this week.

I've increased my exercise from 20 minutes to 40 minutes, or at the least 30 minutes. I've walked 40 minutes twice this week, and 30 minutes twice this week, and before weigh day again next Tuesday, I will walk twice more.

I made mini muffin sized christmas cake on Friday. I worked out the points value, which was 1 point each serve. Whilst I've had one mini muffin per day it has been within my daily points values. In the past I would have easily just started eating them and carried on until they were finished.

I'm also finding that I'm struggling with breakfast. Not that I'm missing it but that I'm struggling with what exactly to have. I'm tired of toast, of crumpets, of french toast, of muesli, and of muffins. Crikey mate, look at that list. How on earth could I get tired - I eat such a varied range of breakfasts - and yet I am. In the mornings I walk between the fridge and the pantry trying to work out what it is that I want to eat....that to me is a recipe for disaster because in the past that has lent towards a bad decision.

I read somewhere ages ago that to break an old habit and form new ones takes about three months. That the crunch time where people generally fall down is around the three months. Things feel the toughest, the hardest and it's when they struggle the most. The body is rebelling against the new in favor of the old....because it's simpler, because it's well known, because it's familiar. Well, I'm NOT going back to the old ways because that means FAT. I will push through this - I will carry on losing weight because I want to. God help me, because I need your strength.

Weigh In: Wk 9: Loss 400 grams

OK, so it's not much but it's all heading in the downward direction. 6.6 kilos to date. What a great achievement - I'm so proud of myself. And now instead of 30 kilos to lose, I know only have 23.4 kilos to lose. I'm that much closer!

I've received a bit of a blow but it's all under control. I have depression and have been very tearful over the last week. Been to see the doctor and had a good talk about it and the direction in which I need to travel. I'm hoping that I can retain focus on keeping under my points.

I have also increased my walking each day. I'm going to do 40 minutes each day with probably a couple of days off a week. At the moment I only do 30 minutes. Hopefully that will help increase the weight loss next week. I guess we'll find out next Tuesday.